Happy.

Tee hee hee. Great message. Yeah. We still have room to grow.

There is nothing wrong with me, I don’t need to be fixed, I am not struggling or confused …. It’s not that I’m not ready, or will ever be available to be ready (to recieve the gospel or church) … I’m not broken.

I’m absolutely normal and I am happy … and I’m certainly not struggling!

What an inspiring message! I find this is the most rewarding part of this site, reading others’ experiences.

I’m soooo happy for you LaLa. Thanks for your example!

Thanks for sharing that insight LaLaLove. That is a powerful realization to make, to truly internalize that sense that you are “ok.” You just are how you are, and you are going to be fine. That is a great place from which to explore the world and go on adventures.

Thanks all. It really was a kind of “duh” moment for me. Like why didn’t I realize this months ago?! Easy to say now … after worrying and being confused for a little over a year. The waiting was obviously needed. I really feel for people just starting on this path …. It is hard but the wait is well worth it … coming out on the other side with eyes wide open. If you ever make it … “It” being peace I guess or even being able to trust yourself/feelings etc. Best feeling .. spiritually I’ve felt in a long time. Porter – You will … but it takes time .. guess everything isn’t suppose to be easy – even this …. Who would have thought?!

Yesterday I had a wonderful thought-I’m not struggling. There is nothing wrong with me, I don’t need to be fixed, I am not struggling or confused …. It’s not that I’m not ready, or will ever be available to be ready (to recieve the gospel or church) … I’m not broken.

I’m absolutely normal and I am happy … and I’m certainly not struggling!

Now I just need to learn how to not take personal offense when there is somone who “thinks” I’m in some lonely, confused, struggling state!

I love this, it is perfect. My wife has told me several times in the last couple weeks that some of her/our friends who know about my journey have asked her about my status and have expressed concern or sorrow about it. I know these people are sincere and there was a time when that may have been exactly how I felt, but life is so much better now. But now I just have to laugh! My motives for doing everything are on a higher plane because I am at absolute choice and accountability only to myself. Hanging in there, not needing all the answers, being free to think and feel for myself is such an empowering place to be. Porter, your patience will pay off as you proceed with love. LLL, thanks for sharing your joy today!