Hello

Like many of you, I have had questions about the LDS church. I was baptized into the church in the 1990s, but I have not been for a number of years. I never became temple-worthy, and I suppose I did not play as large a part in the church as I could have. I think for me, it was a bit much too soon. I am a shy person, and I didn’t feel up to doing much home teaching, or missionary work. (I find job interviews hard enough – it’s a curse.) And I had a girl chasing me I wasn’t interested in – I didn’t dislike her, I just wasn’t interested in a relationship, and I really didn’t want to give her a nasty brush off.

I am told by some folk (not LDS by the way) that I’m a little eccentric. That’s just how I am, but it did feel strange going into a church of such neat and well presented people. I also wonder if I asked the wrong questions. I have suffered my share of mental turmoil, but it’s not something I feel society is very good at addressing. I hope you don’t mind if I don’t say too much about myself as an individual. I’d rather have some level of anonymity.

Recently, I started feeling a real draw back to the church, but I don’t know if I can take it again or not. I went into my local church (ten minutes late due to transport problems) last Sunday, but I had to leave, because I didn’t know which room to go to, or what came first. I’ve started rereading the Book of Mormon, and 2 Nephi is of particular interest. Other parts of it are tough going. I’m also reading through the Book of Jeremiah.

I have a few issues, which I will bring up in the forums. I’m most of the way to agnostic these days, but I have started feeling a pull again.