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    I have hesitated over whether or not to post this, but I have to say somewhere how I feel. This group has been nothing but supportive and helpful, so please don’t take my frustration as an attack on any of you. I just feel like I need to post my perspective because I can’t be the only one who feels this way.

    I was born in the Church, baptized at eight, active in YW from 12, a seminary graduate, BYU student, and institute student. My dad is a bishop and a retired seminary/institute teacher, and several of my siblings and my husband served full-time missions. I have served in presidencies in all three auxiliaries, and I have served as a SS and a RS teacher. I have attended church almost every Sunday for my entire life, sat through countless conferences and firesides, had in-depth gospel discussions with my family members, attended the temple very regularly, and maintained a regular subscription of church magazines. Growing up, I was the kid who always knew the answers in my Sunday classes, and as an adult, I have been a person others have turned to with questions about the church. I feel like– or at least I thought– all of this meant that I knew quite a bit about the church. And until earlier this week, I HAD NO IDEA ABOUT THE SEER STONE.

    I know that those of you who have been fully immersed in (uncorrelated) church history for some time have a very difficult time understanding how this very important bit of information escaped me. My husband is also surprised. The Church seems to be surprised as well; after all, the information has apparently always been available to me. I feel like I need to speak up for myself, and others like me, and explain how hurtful and infuriating it feels to be told that I should have known about this all along. When you say that I should I have known, I feel like my intellect and faith are being undermined. I feel like I’m being presumed to be one of those people who wasn’t really paying attention in the more than 30 years I’ve been in church and that I’m somehow not smart enough to have figured this out. Being told that I should have known makes my shock and hurt somehow my own fault. Essentially, I feel like I’m being called a fool.

    You know, sometimes I put candy in my nightstand drawer. My kids get most of the treats that come into our house, but every now and then, I’ll get a little something for myself and put it in my drawer. Imagine if I were to go downstairs right now with a half-eaten candy bar in my hand. My kids would be furious that I wasn’t sharing, and they would definitely not say that they knew about the candy bar before I started eating it in front of them. Could I really tell them that they should have known about it? After all, my bedroom door is opened, and they could have come looking in my drawer at any time. The receipt from the grocery store where I bought the candy is in the garbage– surely they could have read the receipt that is sitting in the garbage can! They should have known!

    In the past little while, I have researched several topics that I’ve been uneasy about, hoping to get some insight that would calm my inner turmoil. I’ve talked about in another post how frustrating and disheartening it has been to find that the history I’ve found doesn’t match what I’ve been taught to believe. Even though I read the history, I think I kept holding out a hope that I would find something that would get me back on track, so to speak. I kept thinking that maybe all of my doubts really were just caused my own disobedience or lack of the spirit. I kept hoping that something or someone would say, no, all of this confusing history you’ve read is just silly speculation, or a self-serving spin on the truth, or something like that, and everything is just like we’ve always said it was. When I saw the pictures of the stone, I got a sick, almost nauseated feeling in my stomach, almost like it confirmed that all of the things I hoped were false, are actually true.

    I’m really hurting right now. I feel like I’ve been taught not to trust myself, that my feelings of confusion and doubt are products of my own sin and lack of faithfulness. But I’ve also realized, painfully, that I can’t trust the church. I know that this is not new to many of you, and I understand how this new “transparency” can feel exciting. For those of us in my position, though, please understand that it causes significant anxiety. Please, please don’t add to those already overwhelming feelings by telling us that we should have known.

    #302622
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    I think the church, with just a tiny bit of commentary, could do a lot to squelch the “you should have known” crowd’s annoying comments right now. I don’t understand why it doesn’t.

    #302623
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    it is incredibly infuriating and a huge feeling of betrayal. As a lifelong member, I should not have had to find this out on the Internet on my own.

    It is incredibly painful and hurts the trust. It has to be rebuilt.

    My only advice is…have faith this too shall pass. Time helps. (Sorry…that is sucky advice when you’re in pain now. Just know your feelings are legit, and ‘you should have known’ is not sufficient or christlike to be told that. It just isn’t christlike.)

    Thanks for sharing your thoughts so clearly. Many others feel the same way.

    #302624
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    I understand fully — I learned about the Mountain Meadows Massacre on the doorstep of a non-member 3 months into my mission. The fact that I knew nothing about it only confirmed his notion that we are brainwashed.

    Another variant of the “you should have known” statement is what people say when people who are long in the church become disaffected. Rather than show empathy, kindness, and love, I hear people in meetings say “he has the Melchizedek Priesthood, served a mission, and is married in the temple, and has served in leadership positions — he should KNOW BETTER”.

    It’s as if they think — the person has been taught the rules, and is breaking them, and therefore, has no excuse. No willingness to consider the underlying complex issues or the church’s sometimes significant responsibility in leading us there.

    ..they should know better :)

    #302625
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    NonTraditionalMom wrote:

    You know, sometimes I put candy in my nightstand drawer. My kids get most of the treats that come into our house, but every now and then, I’ll get a little something for myself and put it in my drawer. Imagine if I were to go downstairs right now with a half-eaten candy bar in my hand. My kids would be furious that I wasn’t sharing, and they would definitely not say that they knew about the candy bar before I started eating it in front of them. Could I really tell them that they should have known about it? After all, my bedroom door is opened, and they could have come looking in my drawer at any time. The receipt from the grocery store where I bought the candy is in the garbage– surely they could have read the receipt that is sitting in the garbage can! They should have known!

    I love the analogy. If you don’t mind I’m going to extend it to match a few experiences that many have shared. In the past you jumped down your kid’s throats any time they went anywhere near the drawer. Over the years they have become conditioned not to go near it.

    NonTraditionalMom wrote:

    I know that those of you who have been fully immersed in (uncorrelated) church history for some time have a very difficult time understanding how this very important bit of information escaped me.

    I understand. I think a select few have grown up from the beginning with teachers that told them everything. Their initial faith was built around the stories that many people only discovered much later along the path. It’s hard for the people that heard the more complete version of events from the onset to understand the perspectives of the people who have not. The misunderstanding can go both ways. How could someone else have such a vastly different experience than I did in a church that is correlated to the nth degree? ;) In sharing our own experiences we have to be careful not to invalidate other people’s experiences.

    I know where you’re coming from. I remember seeing one vague reference to the seer stone. I searched high and low through church material and only found the vaguest of mentions in passing. The story of Hiram Page in the Doctrine and Covenants only seeded my thoughts against the use of seer stones. Silly Hiram, thinking that he could get revelation from a stone. That section of the D&C made my acceptance of JS using a stone an uphill climb. That section really could use a new history synopsis in the beginning. Something stating that the use of the stone itself wasn’t the issue, the issue was that Hiram stepped outside the chain of command.

    Many people have even experienced accusations of looking at anti-Mormon materials when they have asked others about the seer stones. I tried to reflect that in my extension of your analogy. The people that have accused others of looking at anti sources probably knew nothing of the seer stones, so there’s another group that knew nothing of the stones. I bet those people are in a difficult place right now.

    All members didn’t know about the stone at some point and later learned about it. The question is how early did they learn about it, how long had they built up faith in the less than complete version.

    When someone says “you should have known” I think it’s coming from one of several places:

  • The inability to understand that other people’s experiences in the church can be different.

  • Pride. You are struggling but I’m not struggling because I’ve progressed further than you, or I’m a better member than you. Telling everyone I don’t have a problem with this moves me up the social ladder.
  • If they weren’t raised knowing about the stones they’ve forgotten how they felt when they first found out. They may have had the benefit of years to process things and are expecting someone to process things in the time it takes to hear one injurious phrase.
  • Hey, none of us are perfect.

    I’m not a fan of the phrase. It’s dismissive and you’re correct. It makes people feel lesser.

#302626
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SilentDawning wrote:

..they should know better :)

Ha. That’s one of the points I was trying to make. You did it better in only 4 words.

#302627
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We hear people say the Church is the same everywhere. That leads to thinking our experiences are the same as all members – or, at least, most of them.

The Church isn’t the same everywhere, and, as a result, our experiences aren’t the same. The Church in any location is an aggregate of the members in that location, including us. As nibbler said, that makes it hard for people to recognize and understand each other when radical differences exist.

I knew about the seer stone at a young age – because I was a voracious reader who loved history as a child and who had parents who encouraged me to read “adult” things about history. I have friends with whim I went to school who probably are surprised by this essay. There have been numerous things written about the seer stone over time, including Ensign articles from time to time, but not everyone read them – and there is no fault in that. People read what people read, and availability is not the same as instruction.

I also am a historian by nature, so I am less prone to discredit or be bothered by cultural oddities. I am much more geared to accept and even expect them – and my orientation, if you will, helps these things be less shocking and more understandable to me. Not everyone is geared that way – and that’s okay.

The key, I think, is charity. Just as we want others to understand and accept our struggles, we ought to try to understand and accept their lack of struggles. We simple are who we are, and mutual respect is the key. If we aren’t getting it, we need to give it – even if it is unconditional.

#302628
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NonTraditionalMom,

Oh how I feel for you. I feel much the same way you do in that growing up I was told over and over that anti-Mormon literature was possessed of the devil and if you started looking at it you would be seduced by him – so STAY FAR FAR AWAY from it!!!! (if you go near my nightstand you will get the biggest beating!!! – to use your analogy) Then after decades of following that advice I start looking at some “safe” info and find that almost all the anti-Mormon stuff was based on truth (sometimes with the most negative slant). It is one of – no THE – most betraying feeling I have ever had in my life.

I have dove in to really research and have been amazed at how much is whitewashed and “just ignore the man behind the curtain” (with a few statements about, “we are not afraid of truth, in fact we believe all truth”).

There are many (most) folks on this site that know quite well some of the feelings you are experiencing. read many of the threads and you will see common themes about not making any rash decisions and learning to look at things different (you will have no choice as your “old way of thinking” just will not compute).

Please use this board as a sounding board. You can get some good advice and this site is very accepting (just don’t attack people).

#302629
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Growing up, whenever I asked people what the seer stone was, I was told that it was another name for the urim and thumim. I think that there has been a lot of confusion as to what the seer stone was.

I only learned about it after watching an episode of South Park and then doing some research. I’m still not exactly sure what it is, besides being a rock.

I don’t believe there has been any clear explanation in church correlated material as to what the seer stone actually was, and it does not seem like the church has wanted us to know the details. Why else would a church who loves to use pictures not share with us the picture until now? So, no, there is no way that you should have known. Maybe that saying is a way for members to feel unquestioningly obedient.

#302630
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I think “you should have known” is the verbal manifestation of a TBM putting this event on their shelf in some way.

I can relate to what you wrote. The problem is we all should have known but the church was telling people this:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9RGgggC0014&feature=youtu.be&t=6m51s

#302631
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The thing is, Paulista, there is nothing objectively inaccurate in that video when it comes to the translation process. According to multiple accounts, Joseph might have spent some of his time “translating” in that way. We don’t have anything that says he always used the seer stone or that he always worked in any one way, especially when there was a drawn curtain between him and the scribe, which was the bulk of the time.

As we have said in other threads, when you produce a very short summary history of anything, you tend to pick either the most controversial parts or the least controversial parts – depending totally on the overall point or impression you want to make. It happens all the time, and it would be impossible to tell a lengthy story and not do it.

We should be careful in our concern about not having known about this to make the same mistake on the end of the spectrum and deny aspects that did, probably did or might have occurred – or to over criticize things like a very short summary of a very long story.

Having said that, I am not aware of any video portraying the use of the seer stone. That is a shame – although it might be impossible to portray accurately, since I’m sure we have a god description from Joseph or anyone else about the actual mechanics of that process. We know enough about the historical use of seer stones to come close and perhaps be accurate, but even then purists would probably criticize that portrayal, as well.

I would love to see a video now that we have this essay that portrays the process.

#302632
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Old-Timer wrote:

The thing is, Paulista, there is nothing objectively inaccurate in that video when it comes to the translation process.

In the interest of full disclosure, this (honesty/integrity) is one of my key issues with the Church. In my mind there is a big difference between being honest and “nothing objectively inaccurate”.

Quote:

Lying is intentionally deceiving others. Bearing false witness is one form of lying. The Lord gave this commandment to the children of Israel: “Thou shalt not bear false witness against thy neighbour” (Exodus 20:16). Jesus also taught this when He was on earth (see Matthew 19:18). There are many other forms of lying. When we speak untruths, we are guilty of lying. We can also intentionally deceive others by a gesture or a look, by silence, or by telling only part of the truth. Whenever we lead people in any way to believe something that is not true, we are not being honest.

https://www.lds.org/manual/gospel-principles/chapter-31-honesty?lang=eng

#302633
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Boa Tarde Paulista!

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Paulista wrote “

In the interest of full disclosure, this (honesty/integrity) is one of my key issues with the Church. In my mind there is a big difference between being honest and “nothing objectively inaccurate”.

You nailed it.

Growing up, I was encouraged to stick with the information provided by the church. I was told other sources couldn’t be trusted to tell the truth. I followed those suggestions.

The more I read and the more I study, the more twisted the bigger picture is.

#302634
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Thank you for understanding and acknowledging my concerns. I do hope that my original post didn’t come off as attacking in any way. I felt like this was the safest place to express my thoughts, and I truly appreciate your insights. We often talk about the MBTI, and I think this is where my very high NF tendencies show the most. It’s all about feelings for me. :?

For me, the general attitudes of certain groups felt something like this:

Anti (or commenters on the SL Trib article): “See! We told you! Your church is a fraud! You didn’t know? Well, you’ve been brainwashed/you’re an idiot.”

Progressive Mormons: “Yay! Transparency! You didn’t know? Well, you haven’t been thinking critically/doing your research.”

TBM: “See, we’re not hiding anything. You didn’t know? Well, we did tell you. It’s not our fault if you didn’t read that article in the Ensign that we printed before you were born. And if you’re still questioning, that’s because you lack faith.”

I realize, of course, that there not as many people who actually think exactly this way as it sometimes seems. I guess that’s why I wanted to bring it up– because I am one of those people who falls outside any of those trains of thought. What I need to hear right now is something like, “You didn’t know? I’m sorry. It’s confusing, isn’t it? It’s okay to ask about it, and it’s okay to doubt. There is nothing wrong with you.” And I do hear that message from this site, and I appreciate it. Thanks.

#302635
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There are a thousand things I want to say, some of them are just repeats of what others have said on this thread, some of it would just be me screaming one more time as one more person experiences the pain you are going through. I am a mender by nature. Every personality test, Strength discovery test and so on has a version of my mending desires in it. Today as I read your post I wanted to be sick. Not because of what you wrote, but because you had to write it.

I didn’t know about the seer stone, Joseph’s polygamy, Mountain Meadows Massacre, Emma carrying the bible translation stuck in her skirts as she hiked in the snow for miles, and so on and so on. Some of it hits hard, some rolls off my back. That doesn’t make me better than anyone it’s just my personality. What doesn’t roll off my back is the handling of the stuff, the blowing off of people “who should have known”, the dismissive-ness, the hurt and the damage. That above all ticks me off. There are marriages, families, members and non-members whose lives, harmony, joy, peace are all wrapped up in the results and I am not pleased with the product out-lay.

So – I don’t think you should have known, I also don’t think you should be blamed, and I do think someone needs to take some serious responsibility for this. Yes. No one is perfect and I don’t think the team at the top caused the pain, but they represent the brand, and owe the brand that responsibility. IMHO.

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