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    A few things have contributed to the unraveling of my faith in God. Here are some of them.

    1. The Gospel Does Not Work For Me

    Elder Wilford W. Andersen said, “For some, solutions to depression and anxieties will be found through consultation with competent professionals. But for most of us, sadness and fear begin to melt away and are replaced by happiness and peace when we put our trust in the Author of the plan of happiness and when we develop faith in the Prince of Peace.” So the Gospel isn’t powerful enough to penetrate depression. It was something I already knew from personal experience, but this was a major blow to me.

    2. The Spirit Does Not Work For Me

    For years, I have wondered why it’s so hard for me to feel the Spirit. Now there is an admission that the Spirit has severe limitations: “An inability to feel the Spirit, or a general feeling of apathy or numbness, is often a symptom of mental illness. You are not being punished for sin. God has not forsaken you.”

    It’s positive to say it’s not my fault, but it admits that people with mental illness might not be able to feel the Spirit, which is very troubling to me. It’s very difficult for me to believe in a god who is either unable or unwilling to reach depressed people. Also, it is very disturbing to think that Satan can mimic the Spirit. How is it legit to use the Spirit as a test for truth when it can be coming from either God or Satan?

    3. The Faith Test

    Last year, I read “The God Who Weeps” by Terryl and Fiona Givens. They wrote about the importance of choosing faith.

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    For most of us, at least, there is neither a choir of heavenly heralds proving God exists, nor a laboratory of science equipment proving He doesn’t. Rather, we find a persuasive body of evidence on both sides of life’s competing propositions. Only in the case of us mortals, there is something to tip the scale. There is something to predispose us to a life of faith or a life of disbelief. There is a heart that, in these conditions of equilibrium and balance, equally “enticed by the one or the other,” is truly free to choose belief or skepticism, faith or faithlessness.

    The call to faith, in this light, is not some test of a coy god, waiting to see if we “get it right.” It is the only summons, issued under the only conditions, which can allow us fully to reveal who we are, what we most love, and what we most devoutly desire. Without constraint, without any form of mental compulsion, the act of belief becomes the freest possible projection of what resides in our hearts.

    …And that is an activity endowed with incalculable moral meaning.


    This caused me to really think about why having faith is so important. Why is it the first principle of the Gospel? If there is no compelling reason to choose faith, are all non-believers really bad people? Could that really be God’s way of measuring us? It seems arbitrary to me. In my opinion, the real test should be whether someone has a desire to know the truth and acts to do good according to his or her ability.

    4. The Secret

    I’ve listened to “The Secret” audiobook a few times this year. It teaches the law of attraction, which says “If you can see it in your mind, you can hold it in your hand” and “Whatever you can conceive and believe, you can achieve.”

    So, what’s the best and easiest way to put people under your religion’s thumb? Perhaps the answer is to teach the people that the most important thing for their salvation is to first BELIEVE. And they must fervently believe and even act as if they already know a thing that they really don’t know. Doing that would lead to a witness of the truth – meaning it leads them to “knowing” whatever it is that they believed. The problem here is that people can convince themselves that all sorts of things are true. People from all sorts of religions bear sincere witness that God has revealed to them the truthfulness of Catholicism, Islam, LDS, FLDS, etc. These thoughts are devastating and horrifying to me.

    Do people believe in a god only because they believe? Is this the great secret about god?

    So, what’s the point of all this? While I have lost my faith in a god, I don’t want to be an atheist. I am looking for hope. Has anyone had thoughts like mine and remained faithful to God? What can I do?

    #312745
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    1) “Penetrate” depression – yes, for most people, since most people don’t deal with severe, constant depression; “solve” – no, for most people with what would be termed moderate-severe cases. However, I would say that the “Gospel” (the grace of the Atonement) contains elements that can provide comfort and hope to those with mortal issues of various kinds, including depression. Much of it lies in each person’s expectations and interpretations.

    God bless you as you walk your difficult path.

    2) Mental illnesses screw with lots of things, including emotions, happiness, joy, etc. that generally are classified as fruits of the Spirit. My schizophrenic mother was incredibly “spiritual” when her meds were working; she was frighteningly different when they weren’t. Which state was her natural one? Maybe both are. We (my family) tend to see her medicated state as her natural spiritual state and her unmediated one as her her natural physical state. We tend to see the disconnect as part of the crapshoot of mortal life, not as indicative of God’s inability or lack of desire – but that is due to our view of our theology.

    I see a wonderful spirit in your comments, clothed in a difficult physical form. Do what you can to figure out how to lessen the difficulty, even if it never disappears.

    3) I think your definition of faith is the correct one – and I think it is consistent with the Gospel within Mormon theology, even though too many members define it differently and, in my opinion, incorrectly.

    Stick to your definition.

    4) Yes, people tend to believe because they either have a believing orientation or because they want to believe – or both. There is nothing wrong with that, in and of itself.

    5) What do you do? Continue to refine your beliefs and faith in whatever way helps and makes sense the most. Hang in there. Continue to seek help, of all kinds. Know you are loved.

    #312746
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    Indeed I have had and do have thoughts like your Shawn. One of the greatest things about this site is that I am constantly reminded that I am not alone. I currently don’t know how to describe my belief/faith or lack thereof. In describing my faith crisis I usually say I was “near atheist.” That’s probably a softening of what I really believed, I was atheist but like you didn’t want to be. Agnostic is a softer term, but if the definition of an agnostic is one who is awaiting proof of God I also recognize that such proof doesn’t exist short of an experience like Joseph Smith’s. My current belief in God rests solely on the idea that I don’t believe the universe just happened, that it doesn’t make sense to me that all of it just sprang into existence without any interaction by an advanced power (the Creator God in my view).

    I don’t know that this answers your questions. I certainly do not believe in the same God that I hear about in fast and testimony meeting. Am I really faithful then? I do cling to hope in many ways – hope that is sometimes faint and fleeting and all but absent. My heart bleeds for you. May you find the peace you seek.

    #312747
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    Old Timer wrote:

    3) I think your definition of faith is the correct one – and I think it is consistent with the Gospel within Mormon theology, even though too many members define it differently and, in my opinion, incorrectly.

    Stick to your definition.


    Curt, what definition are you referring to?

    Old Timer wrote:

    4) Yes, people tend to believe because they either have a believing orientation or because they want to believe – or both. There is nothing wrong with that, in and of itself.


    So, how do people here determine what is true?

    Old Timer wrote:

    5) What do you do? Continue to refine your beliefs and faith in whatever way helps and makes sense the most. Hang in there. Continue to seek help, of all kinds. Know you are loved.


    Thanks, Curt. I do feel loved when I come here.

    #312748
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    DarkJedi wrote:

    My current belief in God rests solely on the idea that I don’t believe the universe just happened, that it doesn’t make sense to me that all of it just sprang into existence without any interaction by an advanced power (the Creator God in my view).

    I don’t know that this answers your questions. I certainly do not believe in the same God that I hear about in fast and testimony meeting. Am I really faithful then? I do cling to hope in many ways – hope that is sometimes faint and fleeting and all but absent. My heart bleeds for you. May you find the peace you seek.


    Thanks for your words, DJ. Are you doing okay now or are you miserable?

    I am hoping there is a god and a heaven because I think it would be extremely tragic, and maybe absurd, for life to completely end at death. Also, the universe seems quite frightening if no one is caring for it.

    #312749
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    Shawn wrote:

    So, how do people here determine what is true?

    Bro. Givens seems to be saying that there is neither conclusive evidence to believe nor conclusive evidence to disbelieve. some people are just wired to believe. Others are more wired to disbelieve and that is perfectly ok and natural for them. Some of us could actually go either way. I find it impressive if people try to determine what to believe based upon what is most ethical (the greatest good for the largest number of people).

    If we will never (in this life) know for sure what is objectively true then what we choose to believe becomes a reflection of ourselves. of our innermost hopes and desires.

    We get to determine what our life means for ourselves. Yes, I agree that this is a very frightening proposition but it can also be quite liberating and expansive.

    May there be a road friend.

    #312750
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    Roy, it’s good to hear from you.

    Roy wrote:

    …I find it impressive if people try to determine what to believe based upon what is most ethical (the greatest good for the largest number of people).

    If we will never (in this life) know for sure what is objectively true then what we choose to believe becomes a reflection of ourselves. of our innermost hopes and desires.


    Choosing to believe and do what seemingly does the greatest good for the largest number of people is admirable. I agree that “what we choose to believe becomes a reflection of ourselves.” I want to choose to be kind to others and make the world a better place. I guess my problem is that choosing to believe or disbelieve in a god, when neither choice is more compelling, should not be the ultimate test when determining if one should be saved. When I consider what I have learned by listening to “The Secret,” I wonder if the principle of exercising faith in a god was manufactured to put people under control.

    #312751
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    Shawn wrote:

    I want to choose to be kind to others and make the world a better place.

    I like that choice. :thumbup:

    Shawn wrote:

    I guess my problem is that choosing to believe or disbelieve in a god, when neither choice is more compelling, should not be the ultimate test when determining if one should be saved.

    Maybe there’s power in stepping away from “who will god save?” and embracing “who will I save?” Be the god you hope for.

    Shawn wrote:

    Also, the universe seems quite frightening if no one is caring for it.

    This reminds me of the quote, “Relax, nothing is under control.”

    #312752
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    In my opinion, the real test should be whether someone has a desire to know the truth and acts to do good according to his or her ability.

    Shawn, I think this is a perfect description of faith as taught in the Book of Mormon and in which I believe. I believe faith is trying to do what we believe is right, with a belief it is God’s will, and I think that is all God asks of us.

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    So how do people determine what is true?

    Ideally, they study it out in their hearts and minds – and go with whatever satisfies both, with an acceptance of possible change as they continue the process.

    The Book of Mormon says we are created to be agents unto ourselves. It’s easy to lose sight of that simple, profound concept, since it is not easy to maintain within a community of any kind and requires continuous effort to remain constantly balanced, but it is the best answer I can give.

    Things like depression, anxiety, OCD, extreme self-confidence, etc. complicate the process of finding and maintaining that inter-dependence, so my prayers are with you as you continue your journey that is more difficult than mine.

    #312753
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    Shawn wrote:

    DarkJedi wrote:

    My current belief in God rests solely on the idea that I don’t believe the universe just happened, that it doesn’t make sense to me that all of it just sprang into existence without any interaction by an advanced power (the Creator God in my view).

    I don’t know that this answers your questions. I certainly do not believe in the same God that I hear about in fast and testimony meeting. Am I really faithful then? I do cling to hope in many ways – hope that is sometimes faint and fleeting and all but absent. My heart bleeds for you. May you find the peace you seek.


    Thanks for your words, DJ. Are you doing okay now or are you miserable?

    I am hoping there is a god and a heaven because I think it would be extremely tragic, and maybe absurd, for life to completely end at death. Also, the universe seems quite frightening if no one is caring for it.

    OK is probably a good way to put it. I’m not miserable, mostly. I have times where I am more hopeful than others, I’m currently in a less hopeful swing due to some recent events. I should note that I do have situational depression, and that does of course affect how hopeful or how hopeless I am at times.

    I also hope there is a God, and I believe there is. Beyond that, I’m not all that sure of anything about God. Some things you said in your OP do resonate with me.

    #312754
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    Shawn wrote:

    I guess my problem is that choosing to believe or disbelieve in a god, when neither choice is more compelling, should not be the ultimate test when determining if one should be saved.

    What does it mean to you to be “saved”?

    I do not believe that our beliefs or choices should be based upon fear. I want mine to be based upon love. I hope that if I live with love, then the afterlife and being “saved” will just take care of itself.

    #312755
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    Shawn wrote:

    A few things have contributed to the unraveling of my faith in God. Here are some of them…1. The Gospel Does Not Work For Me

    2. The Spirit Does Not Work For Me3. The Faith Test…This caused me to really think about why having faith is so important. Why is it the first principle of the Gospel? If there is no compelling reason to choose faith, are all non-believers really bad people? Could that really be God’s way of measuring us? It seems arbitrary to me. In my opinion, the real test should be whether someone has a desire to know the truth and acts to do good according to his or her ability… The problem here is that people can convince themselves that all sorts of things are true. People from all sorts of religions bear sincere witness that God has revealed to them the truthfulness of Catholicism, Islam, LDS, FLDS, etc. These thoughts are devastating and horrifying to me…So, what’s the point of all this? While I have lost my faith in a god, I don’t want to be an atheist. I am looking for hope. Has anyone had thoughts like mine and remained faithful to God? What can I do?

    Yes, I have thought about various reasons to question the existence of God but I still believe in God in spite of all that. For me one key to maintaining faith in God was to separate the general idea of God from some of what I consider to be unrealistic expectations about God, truth, etc. set by the Church itself such as that traditionally accepted scriptures like the BoM and Bible are supposedly the revealed or inspired word of God and that praying for confirmation that the Church is true as sort of a package deal is supposedly a good way to know exactly what is true or not. I definitely don’t believe that supposed spiritual confirmations, warm fuzzy feelings, etc. are a very reliable and consistent way to know what is true or not.

    I am open to the possibility of revelation or inspiration on a case by case basis but I also think it is quite common for people to claim that God supposedly thinks this or that when it is really coming from their own mind and therefore heavily influenced by their own preconceptions, cultural background, etc. (I.E. racism, sexism, etc.). At this point, I see faith as being something mostly for people that already believe or want to believe something rather than something everyone should have and if not then it’s not alright. Basically the whole mindset of, “Why should I believe that?” is fundamentally different from the mindset of, “Why not?” (taking a leap of faith) and it is easy enough to come up with reasons to doubt practically anything if that’s what you want to do. And even if you want to believe in God sometimes it isn’t really a choice and for some people it’s just not going to happen.

    However, even if we assume that God exists I don’t see why he should expect people to believe very specific things about him and punish them if they don’t because it is not really clear what he expects given all the competing and often directly contradictory claims that have been made about him by different religious groups. As far as I’m concerned any opinions one way or another about God and life-after-death are nothing more than a guess so different people can look at the same evidence and reasons to believe specific claims or not and interpret it differently without necessarily meaning they are making a huge mistake, it is just what makes the most sense to them personally. So while the Church has tried to raise the stakes of believing very specific things personally I don’t buy it and think it’s not the end of the world if people guess wrong or come up with different answers in cases like this because the truth is that we don’t really know what the real answer is, it is mostly a matter of speculation.

    #312756
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    Shawn, I’m very fascinated with your thoughts and with your journey and how you are processing things as you work through your experiences.

    There are times when I think to myself that I am more closely aligned to your struggles and demons than perhaps anyone else in this forum. And yet, other times, I approach it and see it from such a different angle, that I don’t know how to respond because it may not be of support to you if I tell you my viewpoint. Feel free to ignore me if these thoughts don’t resonate with you.

    Shawn wrote:

    1. The Gospel Does Not Work For Me

    2. The Spirit Does Not Work For Me

    Is it possible that you feel this way because you are finding that the way the church has taught you the gospel and told you how it should work, and how it has taught you the spirit and gave examples of how it works for others, simply does not align or coincide to your experience with the gospel and the spirit? Perhaps it may not necessarily be the “gospel” and the “spirit” themselves, but it is how you are trying to fit it into a box the church gave you, and that is frustrating because you can’t make it fit? Maybe you need a new box. Maybe you need to craft your own box, and see if it truly can work for you, in your own way…not the way others frame it at church?

    I wonder at times if mental illness is a part of this life, because it gives many people experiences they could not have any other way. It removes a recipe for peace and happiness, because not one recipe works for all people of different tastes and likes. Instead, it leaves us with paradox…seeking to express as a group some gospel truths of the spirit that are so difficult to manufacture in the physical world with brains and language and understanding that is all filtered through a glass we see darkly, leaving us with the perfect sandbox to play around in to gain experiences and learn no other way than to do it our way, not color by numbers.

    In that way, can mental illness, like depression, be a blessing? Pain and suffering that prepare us for transformation? I do not know. I only ask questions.

    Your questions you have posted in your original post are very very good questions. I learn from your posts as you share your thoughts on it.

    For me, I try to embrace paradox and uncertainty, and that in this world, not all questions will be easily answered, but more metaphors and thoughts are to be used to get us closer to that elusive truth we seek. For me, what feels right…is loving and serving others. That’s all I hope and believe in.

    I am inspired by Joseph Campbell who wrote:

    Quote:

    Mythology is not a lie, mythology is poetry, it is metaphorical. It has been well said that mythology is the penultimate truth–penultimate because the ultimate cannot be put into words. It is beyond words. Beyond images, beyond that bounding rim of the Buddhist Wheel of Becoming. Mythology pitches the mind beyond that rim, to what can be known but not told.

    and also…

    Quote:

    People say that what we’re all seeking is a meaning for life. I don’t think that’s what we’re really seeking. I think that what we’re seeking is an experience of being alive, so that our life experiences on the purely physical plane will have resonances with our own innermost being and reality, so that we actually feel the rapture of being alive.

    and also…

    Quote:

    Every religion is true one way or another. It is true when understood metaphorically. But when it gets stuck in its own metaphors, interpreting them as facts, then you are in trouble.

    Perhaps the response to the Secret about God…I would agree with Campell when he said…

    Quote:

    God is a metaphor for that which transcends all levels of intellectual thought. It’s as simple as that.

    #312757
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    DevilsAdvocate, thank you for your words. You make some good points. If I am going to believe in god right now, I will need to separate that belief from the scriptures. I also think it’s a bad idea to buy into package deals. Saying “If the Book of Mormon is true, then Thomas S. Monson is a true prophet” is kind of like saying “If the US Constitution is good, then everything Congress does today must be good.”

    Right now I don’t know how to determine if anything of a religious nature is true. Supposedly, we can’t even tell if the devil or god is talking to us.

    #312758
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    Heber, I really appreciate your post. It is possible that I feel the Gospel and the Spirit don’t work for me for the reasons you mentioned. I don’t know. I’m having a hard time making sense of anything right now.

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