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glad others struggle too.

You are welcome!

I feel your pain. We all want to control things in life that we do not have much control over. I remember a family in our ward growing up that had a rebellious daughter. I thought to myself that would never happen to me because … (drum roll) I was going to make FHE a priority. 🙄 That was 17 year old me.

Having a lasting and successful marriage is like many things in life. There are some things that we can do to make it more likely to happen, but we can also do absolutely everything in our power and watch it blow up in our face. There are probabilities but there is no formula – no guarantees. Also, sometimes the church seems to teach that the shortcut to solving a host of life problems is increasing faith, sacrifice, and loyalty to the church. That in itself is a problem and I wish that there could be more practical problem solving instruction in the church.

I was determamed to have a successful marriage and though my obediance i would do that. It didnt happen.

16 years is a long time. I am very sorry for the pain you are going through. It is similar to grieving in that you must mourn the future and life that you had planned to live. Hugs to you friend! You are not alone and this is a safe place for any of your struggles that you wish to share.

Welcome Havefaith. Your story is very familiar and this is a good place to work issues out.

I was divorced too. We separated about a month after joining the church. It difficult to remain

active when I sat on one side of the chapel & daughter & her mother sat on the other. I had a

good Bishop who helped me work through the situation.

Keep coming back.

Thank you for your welcome everyone. Boy dont know what to say. When i was married i tried having family prayer, scripture study,, eat as a family, and FHE etc.i even married a returned missionary which my mom did not. Those werent the good feel moments i thoughr they would be.

Of course as i said my marriage ended. After marriage. I tried to incorperate what i could after my husband left. I enjoyed the feeling i got doing the things I could with my kids. Some things maybe even alot of things did die off as time went one i think because of my faith crisis. We do somevthings still. Really though i wrote before, my testimony struggles at times. i guess as time keeps going that part gets harder. I used to love chuch music and even back before i was married when i would feel tention in my home life i would listen to church music. I guess a part of me thought that would make things better. i thought boy the church has to be true with this kind of music. I loved the music even up until recently. I started thinking was it the words i liked or was it just the buatiful sound. Ive often liked good music and have some non church related music that i really enjoy. Anyways i have a hard time listening to church music now days. Why am i struggling so much? I even have a hard time reading the scripture because i thought if i applied them in my life all would work out. Its triggery some times. I guess thats why sunday school has been so hard. We are now supposed to study at home before class. I havent been doing it. Ive been going to sacrament mostly to hold my temple recommend and because my family thinks of me as an active member. I hate saying that because until my fsith crisis began i thought that was a dumb and irrisponsable reson to go to church. Some times i do go for my spiritualalty, whatever that means. Im not quite sure. Sorry i have so much more to say but am glad this place is here. Any words of support and wisdaom would be great.