I feel like I should apologize. I’m a big time lurker here, although posting for me comes in spurts. So often this community has given me wonderful feedback and I don’t reply.
No need to apologize. We don’t have any minimum posts per month. Glad you feel this place helps.
While I think I’m out of the “anger stage” right now, I did experience it in the earlier stages of my faith crisis…but it was more of a love-hate thing occurring when I was finally accepting how frustrating “the Church” had become for me. However, it didn’t build up into the cynicism I was feeling at this point when I made this post for a long time. I suppose it took me years to finally boil into the “anger/cynicism” stage that I was in a few months ago. I also have never wanted to be the “anger ex mo” which I think has been mostly a good thing for me in impacting how I behave and how I handle my relationships.
I can’t say the cynicism is completely gone now, it’s just shifted. I’m definitely in the mourning process and boy, is it excruciating. But the words of encouragement to allow myself to feel the full range of a human being were what I needed to hear. Thank you.
I am glad that I am past the anger stage. I still have occasional hot buttons that get me, but by and large the anger is gone. It is a process. It is nice to be past that, isn’t it? I too do not want to be that angry exmo.
Best of luck!