I do believe that God exists but I realize that I’ve grossly misunderstood him all of my life. I’m not angry with him but I guess I’m angry with myself because I feel like I should have seen all along what I see now. I’m just so confused and don’t feel like I know anything anymore.
You should at least cut yourself as much slack as you extend to god. Just sayin’ 
The way I frame things is that I view things differently now… but the way I viewed them before wasn’t wrong, it was what I needed at the time. Now I need something different. The path behind me is a good path, it led me to where I am today.
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