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I have had some health issues for a number of years now, and i realize that what i have is permanent, although I think there is room for improvement. I have a rare form of hypopituitarism and chronic pain that may or may not be connected to my adrenal insufficiency and my thyroid problems. I have also battled depression and anxiety for years. I think that part of my faith crisis I was having when I joined this board was connected to my health. I went against my doctor’s feelings and went on an antidepressant—that was a very good decision for me. I am not on a very high dose, a higher dose might even help me more, but because i am on a number of medications and supplements, I don’t want to mess with too many things at once. I have found that with a little better mood, I do not cry everyday anymore, and my attitude, in general is better. I am hoping I can maintain this better sense of being for a while, although my experience has been that antidepressants poop out on me within a few months.
I don’t have a church job at this time, but, honestly—-I’m not sure what I am capable of doing. I was playing the piano for RS, but a medication was giving me the shakes so bad and I was out of practice and making mistakes to the point of being embarrassed—mistakes never really bothered me before. I asked to be released the day my hand was too swollen and stiff from the rashes I had most of my life, to be able to play. I have loved leading the Primary music–but that would probably exhaust me. I loved working with the 11 yr old scouts, but had to be released because of my health.
I would like to be a part of something and be more involved with people.
If any of you have health problems that limit you, how do you stay in touch with people and feel a part of things if you are not able to do much?
I don’t want to go back to feeling so out of place and disconnected. We are trying to sell our house, and would love to move to the ward we lived in for 18 years and raised most of our kids in—but that may not happen, and I want to learn to be happy in the ward i am in. I also want to feel like I can serve in some way.
Sorry to hear that things are so difficult right now. What about keeping it simple? Could you visit teach and do you already have a route? In some seasons, that is plenty and can be very peaceful and rewarding. For everything there is a time and a season, and we are not required to run or walk or crawl (or, at some point, sit) faster than we are able. I hope you can find peace in your situation.
I’m sorry you have so much to deal with right now. I don’t have chronic pain, but do deal with depression and anxiety and know how it can be when it gets bad. My antidepressant is very helpful. You say you have been doing a little better lately. Are there any changes outside of the medication that have made things better. Maybe pinpointing other factors will help you stay in a good place. It speaks volumes about your character that you desire to serve despite all the health problems. Talk to your RS president about how you can serve and your desire to stay connected. Maybe there are some doable service opportunities in your local area. I wish you well.
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