- This topic is empty.
-
Posts
-
AmyJ wrote:
catlady wrote:
About this time I learned that there were several accounts of Joseph, Smith’s first vision. I remember I was sitting outside of the Bishop’s office at church waiting for an appointment. I looked up and saw the painting portraying Joseph’s first vision and I had the strangest thing happen. It was like a huge shift of perspective in my brain. I no longer saw things the same way. It was weird and it was real.
Are you comfortable sharing with us what changed in your perspective please? Why are you defining it as “weird”?
This is a personal sore spot/uncomfortable itching spot (metaphorically) for me because thinking about Joseph Smith’s different versions is not something that I can emotionally understand, and it is not a comfortable (though more comfortable) fit for me intellectually. I think that I can learn from your experience, if you are willing to share it.
I will try and answer your question although it is kind of hard to explain. It was a sudden shift in my perspective as I looked at the painting. All my life from Primary up through Seminary and Sunday School classes I had been taught about Joseph’s prayer and “The first vision”. About the year 2013 I learn about the other versions. This was disturbing to me. I mean wouldn’t all those different details be somewhat important? And then that sudden shift came as a thought “what if…….this whole thing isn’t true?” I used the term weird because it was so sudden, like a eureka moment, you know?
I think many members had the same feeling with how the BOM was portrayed as being translated and then finding out that there was a hat and stone involved. I’m a little late in responding to your original post but welcome all the same. I wanted to say that I also have a temple recommend and my “faith crisis” (for me it’s been an evolution of faith I guess) has been entirely internal and secret. To the outside world, I’m probably still the faithful member that I always was. My wife is the only one who has some inkling that things are not precisely as they were but it makes her so uncomfortable that I don’t discuss it much with her. I’m not planning on leaving the Church anyhow and I’m somewhat reserved and so keeping things to myself is fairly natural. In any event, this is definitely a safe space (in my experience) whatever your faith status may be. Again welcome. Welcome — I know that feeling when one day you wake up and look at the church in a whole different way. For me there was a sense of loss but also a sense of freedom. I’ve been posting here for over 10 years and so far no one has identified me. Whenever I refer to StayLDS to people in real life, I always call it “a private discussion forum to which I was invited”.
So long as you don’t let anyone know you post here, I trust your experience will be the same
Welcome to the site!
- You must be logged in to reply to this topic.