My personal take is that the desire to be productive is VERY painful. Particularly when things happen that prevent you from being productive.
In the last year since my trial of faith, I’ve decided NOT to expect myself to be productive anymore. In some respects, I’ve grown lazy (I post here a lot, which isn’t productive all the time, in my view). That’s one way of dealing with the pain of feeling you’re never doing enough.
Same with Church service. I always felt I was in a hole trying to dig my way out due to all the less actives, all the temple work, all the service needed, etcetera. I felt pressure to be productive, and pain when I wasn’t productive in spite of my efforts.
Call it good or bad, I’m dealing with it by trying to keep my schedule empty for a while…..