should I stay or should I go

[Anonymous]

breaks are good for the soul, particularly when we become resentful of the complicated, forced way to live life as a TBM.

I have come to realize there is a more real god than the big judge in the sky. honestly, i have never understood it: we taught in missionary discussions that Jesus was our judge…and we’re supposed to love him and he loves us. Personally, I have never experienced “love” from a judge (too many traffic tickets I’m afraid), so the metaphor seems to be just BS.

At some point, i deconstructed ALL my beliefs in mormonism, christianity, and the whole schmear. it’s all make-believe. But when I came to this conclusion after two years in India, and found hinduism at its very depth is just as shallow as mormonism, or not, but it was all the same to me at that point. And I missed the community of the saints, so I returned, both from India, as well as to the Church.

Now i can find joy in agitating HP group discussions, and calling BS on some of the outrageous stuff in Sunday School False (er Gospel) doctrine class. I don’t let the church affect my spirit, and when it does, I take a break.

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