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Today has been a surprisingly painful day. I’ve been so overwhelmed with work and school I didn’t see it coming until this holiday sprung up on me. Basically, Easter was always my favorite holiday. One of the most spiritual experiences I ever had was also on Easter. However, this year, I find myself melancholy and even cranky. I’m to the point with my religious beliefs that I don’t know what I believe except that I hope with all my heart that there is an afterlife and there is a loving deity. I hope there’s a purpose behind this life and I believe in God. I want to become a better person and strive to become more loving. I recognize the value of religion and sacrifice. Mostly, I hope that I will be pleasantly surprised after I die. If Christ is a real man and I meet him, I will fall on my knees and weep. I don’t know if he actually existed as the man the bible claims him to be, but for awhile I thought that didn’t matter to me. He still represented love incarnated to me so I was okay. I guess social media is my demise and probably why I’ve been avoiding contact with members of my religious community. This Easter has been hard. I’m tired of people proclaiming how they “know” Jesus did this and that. I get why they do it and all—and it’s not their problem, it’s mine. I don’t know why it bothers me so much. It’s not that I’m angry about it, I suppose it’s just a reminder to me of what I don’t know and what joy this holiday used to bring me. At one point today, as I was walking around, I even had to stop myself as I started bitterly thinking, “I don’t believe in this stuff. I just don’t.”
Suggestions for turning this day into a positive experience?
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I am always good for a few suggestions, but please remember they are free. Take them or leave them as you wish.
#1. Write down or rehearse the spiritual experience you mentioned having around Easter. It was yours, which means it can give you hope.
#2. What happened good today? Was it sunny, rainy, did you eat?, Did you walk today? Make a long list of good stuff from today. Clearly your eyes work, did you see anything beautiful.
#3. Watch something that makes you happy, an old movie, family videos, pictures.
#4. Do something active. – Take a long walk, play a musical instrument, clean a cupboard, office, or desk.
#5. Make something good to eat, cinnamon rolls, brownies, fresh bread.
#6. Listen to music that makes you happy. Or as my daughter likes to do – Sometimes you just need angry music. If you do – Rock It Well.
I am sorry it’s been a miserable day.
University, Im sorry about your bad experience today and im glad mom3 had some suggestions as i dont. But i feel for you. The holidays are always so tough for me. As a single adult woman with no children, it can be overwhelming sitting alone at church surrounded by families. I actually broke down and cried before church today. The pressure of church today and the anticipation of what i knew i would see and feel overwhelmed me. Then when i got home (survived the day), i opened my email to find an email from a friend posting pictures online of their “great holiday family experience”. LOL. They had pictures of everyone in their Sunday best, parents helping the kids dye easter eggs, a great easter egg hunt, etc. I had leftovers warmed up in the micro and watched tv (yes im bad and do that on Sunday…). Im struggling with my own feelings of what the church means to me now, maybe im having a mid life crisis…idk. But i feel that i may survive this whole experience if i can learn just to take parts of it here and there and try not to get too overwhelmed.
Find what you love about the teachings of Jesus and think about / act on them in some way. In other words, find a way to celebrate his life on this day, even if you aren’t sure about the meaning of his death.
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Easter’s good. The only thing is that it’s playing havoc with my wages. I was supposed to have been paid on Friday. Like the song says, “Maybe tomorrow”.
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