I am so sorry Turinturamber.
I really believe that this policy was a legal maneuver to protect the church’s businesses and universities from being forced at some future date to make concessions to legally married gay couples. I believe that this was not done out of spite or malice.
However, I imagine that it feels sorta like John D. Lee after MMM. Perhaps the church policy isn’t personal but the church didn’t seem to hesitate much in hanging you out to dry to protect the larger church interests.
I second SD’s comments about happiness being the purpose of our existence. Please do whatever is necessary to have a meaningful, joy filled, and fulfilling life. You do not owe the church anything.
This is a very trying time. 😥