I can really relate to your conundrum Nibbler. This Sunday I was sitting in Elders Quorum debating with myself whether I should speak up and comment during a lesson about how the prophet will never lead us astray and the grave consequences of disobeying the prophet. The instructor even used the Haun’s Mill massacre as an example of what happens when people don’t heed the prophet’s counsel. I ended up staying quiet because I’m intimidated by the new Elders Quorum full of seasoned High Priests.
One of my biggest motivations for wanting to speak up is when I look around the room during a lesson and wonder who else is withering away inside. I want them to know that they are not alone and that the Church is for us too.