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I asked to be released 3 weeks ago as RS teacher. I looked up the upcoming topics of my Lorenzo Snow lessons and knew that trying to teach them would be too stressful. I debated with myself for weeks. I finally called my RS president and told her over the phone that I couldn’t continue in my calling. Thankfully, she didn’t ask why. If she had, I was going to tell her it was for personal reasons. I asked her to please call me if there were any service needs because I really wanted to serve in the RS even if I wasn’t teaching. That was that and no one has said anything since. Today will feel a little awkward because the new teacher takes over today. It makes me sad because I really did enjoy teaching, but I really need the time to figure how I am going to stay LDS and be true to myself. I wish you well.
cwald wrote:church0333 wrote:… I went in thinking that I will be a cafeteria Mormon this weekend ….
Hmmmm? There were a couple of talks that called you out for being such. Good thing you are listening and choosing which speakers to listen to and believe.
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Like I said, I only ate what I wanted. I didn’t even notice the talks you mentioned. I have been doing that a lot more with many things at church. It’s the only way I feel I can make this work at the present time. If I recall you said the you couldn’t even listen to conference the last couple of times. Cafeteria style is not fine dining by any means and it gets old pretty quick but it does. Beat starving to death.
Martha wrote:I am learning to accept myself with all my flaws. I am learning that children going on missions and getting married in the temple should not define their worth and goodness in any way. I should not define my worth and goodness by having children follow that typical LDS pattern. My faith crisis has made me see more clearly.
Amen Martha! I believe the Gospel to be the “Good News” of love – and not of guilt and shame.
Today at church, as my insides were feeling like they were tied in knots, I happened across one of the bishopric members and asked if I could have a few minutes. I told him I felt like my time had come and that I needed to be released because I was feeling burned out in my calling and that this feeling was compounded by testimony/belief issues. He asked if I wanted to sit down and meet with the bishop over it and I told him that I wasn’t sure if there was much point, as I knew the standard bishop recommendations are to read, pray and attend the temple. I also told him I have been trying each of those and I don’t seem to find peace or answers in the process. He followed up by questioning whether my belief issues were in the church, or in God in general. I had a really difficult time answering that question. I want to believe in God, I think the idea of Jesus is great, but none of it seems to resonate strongly. Our conversation got cut short, probably to be continued, but in the mean time, it feels good to have this weight off my shoulders. It feels good, even though I feel like I have entered new territory and I have no clue where this road leads.
Thanks for all your comments. It is nice to read the stories of others.
littlelostsheep wrote:I had the same problem as primary president the restoration for the next 6 weeks. I almost told my bishop to release me as I couldn’t see a way through the next few weeks.
I decided to delegate every lesson I couldn’t teach.
Today my councillor gave the lesson on the first vision while I sorted things in nursery and other classes. Next week the missionaries are coming in to talk about the coming forth of the Book of Mormon and the following week the bishopric are teaching about the restoration of the priesthood. Sorted for now, until next time!
I get the impression from many here and the NOM board that there is quite a bit of substitute-getting going on. It’s masking a problem, but maybe that’s okay?
I believe we only need do what we can do. To me, that’s not masking as much as it is contributing what is possible. As I’ve said in other threads, when someone calls me, they get me. If delegating and substituting were a necessary part of getting me, then so be it.
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