Thanks for posting that, it is moving. It brought back to me so many emotions. I remember the most terrifying feeling of my life – the realization that no Herculean effort could change the fact that the inner core of who I was, and all that I believed that I could become, was inadequate to meet the expectations of the woman that I loved. I think the last several years have proven that I will do absolutely anything within my power to overcome this ‘deficiency.’ I am not a weak person. I have accomplished virtually everything that I have ever set out to do in life — but sometimes it feels like my only chance to gain that true heart-felt respect that I crave is, spiritually speaking, to overcome tone-deafness and become a gifted singer. Sometimes ‘natural talent’ combined with determination, and applied with all the tools that we can find still falls a little short of the expectation. In that case the primary goal becomes “don’t let the frustration show” or all the effort up to this point will be lost.
